Friday, January 30, 2009

The Good Life?

Okay, let me start out by saying that my husband spoils me rotten. I am a stay at home mom, but every morning my amazing husband gets the kids up, makes their breakfast and packs their lunches and takes them to school. All the while he is doing this I am snug in my bed fast asleep. Of course on Tuesdays I do have to get up early because that is the day someone else comes in to clean my house. Now I do not cook dinner every night, but on the nights that I do cook Brian usually clears the table and does the dishes. I do not know how I was blessed with such a wonderful man.

Of course there is a down side to my pampered life. Brian is a civilian working for the Department of the Army and he does have to deploy for 4 months at a time at least once a year. Life without Brian is so hard, sometimes it can seem unbearable. So why is it when he is home and does so much for me, do I expect more? Is it just human nature to never be satisfied? I don't get it. I know it is wrong. I have everything I could possibly need and even want, yet I always want more. More stuff, more honey dos', more time to myself, more, more, more.

So far I am finding my blog to be pretty dang depressing. But then I am also admitting to myself so many personal defects that I have known about all along but did not want to face. I guess this is free therapy for myself. Only time will tell if it actually has an impact on how I live my life. I hope that I can learn from this and set a better example for my children. Well I guess that is enough for now. I really need to think happy thoughts for next time!!

Thursday, January 29, 2009

A New Beginning

It seems like I have just existed the last few years. I do not recall much and that seems very sad to me. My children are becoming grown men before my eyes and I need to capture moments and cherish every day instead of looking to the future. You know what I mean, I can't wait for the weekend or when we go to... I miss out on the little things everyday and I finally realize it. I decided to start this blog because I am away from all my friends and family and I don't want them to miss out either.

So today is my new beginning. I am going to try to appreciate every day, every moment. The good, the bad, and you know the rest. I hope this blog can help me stay focused. There is only one problem. You know that word "willpower"? Well that is exactly what it is to me. A word. I never seemed to have it. I think when I was in line to get all my attributes I got out of the line for willpower and got an extra dose of sarcasm. All I know is, if blogging is like dieting I am in major trouble!!!

So on top of starting this blog and another reason for starting it I should say is the new hobby I decided to try out, photography. I am getting a digital slr camera and I have been reading everything I can about it. I can't wait to start taking pictures. One thing I always remember about my dad as a child is he always took pictures where ever we went. I always thought that was the coolest thing. If we were on vacation, at a sporting event or whatever, I knew I could remember it because my dad always had his camera. One of the downfalls of living in Germany though is the shopping aspect. You find something you want and you have to order it on the Internet and wait. I am not good at the waiting part. I am definitely into instant gratification. I guess it just gives me more time to read and learn before I jump in head first.

Well I am off to make memories with my kids. Til next time.